Pagi Tanpa Mentari

Pagi. Tak ada berkas cahaya menerangi. Dalam jendela, hanya tirai hujan dan kelabu.

Aku sedang terusik melankoli. Barangkali obsesi, atau rasa ingin memiliki yang tak pernah mewujud-jadi. Sendu lagi-lagi kembali.

Lagu sempurna untuk pagi ini, "Stan", dinyanyikan oleh Eminem bersama Dido yang dirilis tahun 2000 silam. Kureka ulang dalam benak, berteman gitarku Magenta.

( Simak juga http://www.4shared.com/get/8qaVmAwwce/Stan_short_cover_by_Bibi.html dan lagu aslinya https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gOMhN-hfMtY )

My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I..

got out of bed at all

The morning rain clouds up my window..

and I can't see at all

And even if I could, it'll all be gray,

but your picture on my wall

It reminds me, that it's not so bad,

it's not so bad..

Terjemahan paling bebas yang bisa kubuat:

Teh semalam telah dingin, dan aku heran..

mengapa tubuhku beranjak meski enggan

Hujan pagi membuat jendelaku berawan..

semua terhalang dari pandangan

Bahkan jika bisa, yang kulihat hanya muram, semua buram,

Namun potretmu di dinding mengingatkan,

Segalanya tak begitu buruk, tak begitu buruk

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Tak perlu dimengerti. Cukup nikmati.

i will survive

Perhaps it looks such a crazy thing when i publish this song in my blog. But i love this song, and i'd like to share this song to you....he2

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At first I was afraid.
I was petrified.
I kept thinking I could never live
Without you by my side.
But then I spent so many nights
Just thinking how you'd done me wrong.
I grew strong.
I learned how to get along.
And so you're back from outer space.
I just walked in to find you here
Without that look upon your face.
I should have changed my fucking lock.
I would have made you leave your key
If I'd have known for just one second
You'd be back to bother me.

Oh now go.
Walk out the door.
Just turn around now.
You're not welcome anymore.
Weren't you the one
Who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die?
Oh not I.

I will survive.
As long as I know how to love
I know I'll be alive.
I've got all my life to live.
I've got all my love to give.
I will survive.
I will survive.

It took all the strength I had
Just not to fall apart.
I'm trying hard to mend
The pieces of my broken heart.
And I spent oh so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself.
I used to cry.
But now I hold my head up high.

And you'll see me with somebody new.
I'm not that stupid little person
Still in love with you.
And so you thought you'd just drop by,
And you expect me to be free.
But now I'm saving all my lovin'
For someone who's lovin' me.

Oh now go.
Walk out the door.
Just turn around now.
You're not welcome anymore.
Weren't you the one
Who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die?
Oh not I.

I will survive.
As long as I know how to love
I know I'll be alive.
I've got all my life to live.
I've got all my love to give.
I will survive.
I will survive.

[[ the Cake ]]